Losing my nerve. Finding it hard to find the time to do the things I never bothered to make a list of anyway. I guess that’s a good start. And I planned for this vacation time, without the unrealistic expectations. But now I have to monitor and adjust. And state my needs, and set aside a time and place to work and make a list, and not panic. Too much. I can do this. I’ve done it...
Start small, start with what you want. Don’t get tied to the list like it has to be sequential.
Breathing is good
Well, pneumonia sucks. That isn’t surprising. To separate the sickness from being upset about being sick from being upset over anything else was not easy. So I said “fuck it” and watched a whole lot of Buffy. But, as I’m returning to work… life… everything, I should be writing things more. So, here’s a try. Feeling anxious and sluggish. Anxious because I...
No need to be in “crazy-catch-up” mode. Just productive mode.– Me
So... uh.... yeah...
Apologies for the previous rant. Needed to get that out before I went all Incredible Hulk on the office furniture. Also, understanding officemates are great. :-) Wanted to congratulate myself on overcoming sickness and emotional-weirdness of the last week and getting right back to work efficiently and happily and without kicking myself. Yay!
Having a Google alert set to the family name brings up unfortunate surprises at times. How is it that such a worthless shell of a man can make so much money (in a job that requires the sociopath to have a gun, no less) and leave the wife and kids he tortured for twenty-odd years to struggle and scrape by? Why is it that all my friends who get that kind of financial parental help don’t...
I have you cornered, anxiety
So I’ve been slacking on the work, because I was doing so well on my own. Then some dumbass cold virus took me down, physically and mentally. But you know what? That’s what these tools are for, to get through the rough times. No need to despair. Just get up and keep going.
I was going post something positive, but I forgot it cuz my brain broke cuz I’ve been working like mad all week and forgot to eat today. So, yeah… stuff.